((__start_a___riotxx)) [entries|friends|calendar] Anthony 411*x*buds*x*calender*x*twisted *xxx* I couldn’t tell you why she felt that way, she felt it everyday. I couldn’t help her, I just watched her make the same mistakes again. What’s wrong what’s wrong? Too many problems . Dunno where she belongs. (Where she belongs) She wants to go home, but nobody’s home. It’s where she lies ,broken innside. There’s no place to go. No place to go, to dry her eyes. {Broken innside} *xxx* [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

... [25 May 2004|11:25pm] Dawn Sucks big whoopashas... (heat it up)

Why? [19 May 2004|07:36pm] [ mood | angry ] [ music | Avril- My World (Live) ] If you dont care, then I dont care, were not going anywere *sings*. Yes, im singing Avril. An old song at that. But what it says is true to alot of people. If someone you thought you knew doesnt care, then why should you give a fuck anymore? Yes, thats right, Anthony is going to actually express the way he feels in his LJ, instead of posting meaningless posts about nothin but sarcastic things. I'm really going to let you all in on my life. For one, I hate it. Not life in general, but my life. Where I live, my halfway fake friends, my school, my town, my house, my body, my everything. I hate it all. Yesterday I realized I have no life at all. The only time im not depressed or unhappy is when im online, and yes, that is quite pathetic. But I hate everything else. In this state that I live in, Mississippi, the stupid rednecks reject the unfamiliar and are scared of the unknown. Thats why I dont make friends easily. When I want to wear even a tad bit of my *cough* Punkish-rockish clothing, I get called names and shit because my school is 70% black, who mind you do not know who evanescence is, of course, and the 20% whites all listen to Chingy and 50 cent and wear boots and Dixie Outfitters shirts, and dont know who even Ozzy is, and that makes me about want to puke. I wear my bracelets and wristbands I get from the guys "I thought only women wore bracelets and shit". Hate to break the reality barrior with these idiots, but in any state (and even in other mississippi cities) GUYS AND GIRLS wear bracelets and wristbands, not just girls. Hell, in some places guys wear eyeliner and lipstick, at least im not that far odd yet. And then, when I wear EVEN MY shoes I get made fun of. Especially my converse. "Those shoes are for flat footed people or somethin?", "Those are ugly" and shit, why the fuck does it APPLY to ANYONE else than me, and why should they care? And just because I dont HUNT and play FOOTBALL, I am the center of attentions by jocks. Hell I know alot of popular guys who dont play football and when asked why they say the same as me "Because id rather have study hall" or something, but when I say it i get back a "No, you probably just suck". I hate MY school. The girls at my school are okay sometimes, but none of my friends -girls or guys- no the REAL me. I try talking to Alanna about this sometimes, and she understands and agrees with most of it, but sometimes she just looks at me wierd. So most of the time, I cant even talk to my best friend about my worries and hates in life.. Isnt that shitty.. What happened to friends like in the movies? Whatever, I dont give a damn; I dont give a shit. Next subject, my town! I live in a shit hole town. No grocery store, 2 gas stations, 3 small schools (500 students for 6 grades), and a post office. Isnt that a huge city?! I hate small town life... I want to just be able to walk down the street to a friends house and chill for the day, but now for me to go to a friends house and stay over, I have to schedule it like days ahead, since my friends live anywhere from 10-25 miles away.. Never can see some of them.. In my dads city its different. Huge schools, kids like me, and many many different neighborhoods and shit. My friend from there says its so fun there. I hate living here, and If I couldnt stand seeing my mom hurt, I would move with my dad. But Im a sap to see women cry. Well, you know alot more about me now! Hope you liked my little emo ranting there. And my mom wonders why im always pessimistic. Psshtt. Bye yall. (Ps- new layout, and its summer now for me.. Wow, yipee. joy joy. rawr) (heat it up)

F.O.N.L. [18 May 2004|11:16pm] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | Smile Empty Soul- Sillouette ] Well, guys, so more people will look at my LJ, it is no longer "friends only".. Whoot! So now dont worry about asking me to add you as a friend so you can view my entries, you'll be able to see them either way. Its not like i really needed a FO LJ anyway.. Well, I may post a real post later tonight. L8er. (heat it up)

Yeah. [16 May 2004|10:06pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Meow Mix Song ] I've decided to be cool and update my LJ.. Wow, good for me eh?.... And, im gonna make it long too! Well Avril's new lyk t0talli ossum album comes out in exactly 9 days (May 25th).. Isnt that great? Im so excited! (BTW, this isnt sarcasm, I really <33 Avril.. Lmao) Tomorrow may well be my last day of school! Arent you happy for me? If not (If i dot have to take my final exams) i still only have 5 days! Isnt that wicked ossum? Plank, I think we have wall weasles! Lets try to make this long, k... SUMMER-ALMOST-HERE-LYK-OMGISH! Wheet... well doesnt seem this is gonna turn out long, cause im running out of truckin' things to say, quigga.. so, bye bye bia. (heat it up)

Okay.. Yeah.. [04 May 2004|02:40pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Evanescence- Hello ] Hey everyone.. Im at school in my lunch period right now.. Computer (Of course, or else I wouldnt be online, now would I? lol) Well this morning *we just got done* we had our Math State Test.. It was mediocre in thoughness.. Sort of hard, sort of easy.. Do you know what I mean? Its just I was sick through it, with alergies, so it made it that much worste.. Heh.. So anyways, back to whatever.. I hope we dont have too much work this week, probably not though, seeming how its state testing.. English is tomorrow and reading is friday.. Joy.. Those will be alot easier though.. In reading all you do is read stuff and find most of the answers directly from the passages, and in English its just fairly easy anyways.. Well I have to go... bye all.. 1 ºº _ (heat it up)

Jelly time.. [29 Apr 2004|06:31pm] Okay, jelly/rubber/sex bracelets are so getting to media publicized in the wrong way, its getting out of hand. As some of you may know, the rubber bracelets made popular in the 80s by Cindi Lauper and Madonna have came back into popularity.. Girls wear them, guys do too.. I do myself, I think they are awesome.. Avril and the good charlotte guys wear them, and whoever made up the whole "sex" bracelet thing is an idiot.. If you dont know, alot of public middle schools around the US are BANNING these, for the fact there have been reported rape cases from the "snap" sex bracelet game.. The point is someone (guy/girl) breaks one off of you, and whichever sexual content each color stands for is what the two of you are supposed to "do".. I personally havent met ANY middle school teens as myself who play it though! Well anyways the colors stand for as follows--- Black- Sex (and this is my fav color too! lmao) Red- Lapdance (lmao other fav) Blue- Oral White- Flash Pink- Flash Purple- Anal (alt.- kiss) Green- Cunnilingus or Oral (alt. outdoor sex) Silver- Fisting (ewww) Glow-n-Dark- Sex Toys Yellow- Hug Brown- disguisting... Salad Tossing (ewwwwwwww) Golden- Makin out Orange- Kiss Clear- Anything ya want Isnt that so retarded? Ugh.. 2 ºº _ (heat it up)

Net on.. [23 Apr 2004|06:45pm] My.Net.Is.On.Again.So.Yay.For.Me. G2G now.. TTYL (heat it up)

Sharkbait Ooh Ha ha. [23 Apr 2004|01:48pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | The Distillers- Drain The Blood ] Debbie is my husband, and I am her wife. I'm catching up bit by bit in math... Were doing these bookletes lesson by lesson MCT Coachbooks (Mississippi Curriculum Tests) Im on lesson 16 and everyone else is like 23 but that beats being on 9 like I was =) lol.. But by the end of NEXT week we have to be on like Lesson 32! At the end of the book.. So blargh to that.. Or as Alanna said "Well, she can forget that!" *snap snap snap* Sorry I'm rambling about meaningless shite, but .. what else is there? (I typed shite, im british now! WHOOO) No, I want to be Canadian.. If Canada had warmer weather.. So I can go everyday talking like this and saying "about" like "a boat" and talking like 'pinky' off of 'Pinky and the Brain" when I say "gave"... Yes yes... Okay, enough ranting.. My net may or may not be back on, Im at schoolio now.. Cross the fingers people (Who am I talking to? Who reads this? Its like... Friends only, and I only have 4 friends or so, and they dont pay much attention to LJ, especially mine =D.) So bye ya'll... ciao.. (heat it up)

..Thursday.. Still no net.. At Alanna's.. [22 Apr 2004|05:35pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Avril- He Wasn't ] Everything is just screwed up. I'll probably be changing HOSTS again... For reasons I wont say, but still.. My net isnt on yet, and Im at alannas.. I dunno when it will be back on, HOPEFULLY tomorrow or sat. or sun... I miss it.. I hate going without the net.. Errrgghhh..... I hate it.. Ahh.. I learned "Hate everything about you"- Threedays grace (from Alanna) the begining at least.. So be happy Jenn =) Even though I HATE that song.. badly.. lol.. So, more stuff now.. I dunno.... This week was boring.. We took a state test practice for math, and I missed 20 out of 45 =) arent I smart? (its like a 60, Im so good hahaha) But the practice tests are always UBER hard, I made an F on our practice last year and ADVANCED on the REAL test.. so hopefully it will be easier when May comes around.. Im ready for school to be out.. And for Avril's new CD to come out... LoL, well Im going to go yall.. Bye.. (heat it up)

Friends Only.. [18 Apr 2004|03:38pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | The Von Bondies- C'mon C'mon ] If you want to read my stupid idiotic meaningless rantings, then ask to be added as a friend =). I want to keep my stupid boring useless posts private for only people who I know, or that seem really cool now.. so.. Comment, and I'll add ya.. Thanks.. BTW my site has a new lay, if you want to check it out.. New host too.. http://wootness.net/s =) kthx.. 9 ºº _ (heat it up)

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